JAMELL MAURICE TURNER

LIFE AT THE PROM:

WELL ME AND JAMELL HAD ALWAYS TALKED ABOUT PROM AND HE WANTED TO GO WITH ME SO WE WERE GOING TO DO IT B-I-G! WELL HE WENT TO THE PROM WITH SOME GIRL NAMED SONYA. WELL I MISSED HIS PROM BECAUSE I DIDN'T HAVE ANY MONEY AND ALTHOUGH I ALWAYS GET MONEY OFF MY GRANDMA I DIDN'T ASK HER FOR THE MONEY THIS TIME TO GET THERE. WHY I DON'T KNOW EVEN THOUGH SHE IS A MEAN OLD LADY BUT WHO CARES? I JUST DON'T KNOW WHY I DIDN'T ASK. SO I DIDN'T THINK PROM WAS SO IMPORTANT TO JAMELL BUT WHEN BIA CAME OVER WITH THE PICTURES I INSTANTLY FELT A HUGE LOAD OF GUILT. AND RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND WAS HE'S NOT GOING TO BE AT MY PROM.TO MAKE MATTERS WORSE HE PUT ME IN DEEPER GUILT.  I DON'T KNOW WHY THAT RAN THROUGH MY MIND BUT IT DID AND I LIVED WITH THAT UNTIL IT TRULY HAPPENED AND I WENT TO THE PROM WITH JAMEL HASSAN AND EVERYBODY WAS IN TOTAL SHOCK THEY THOUGHT HE WAS JAMELL TURNER BUT I'M GLAD THAT I DECIDED TO GO AND SHARE THAT MOMENT WITH JAMEL AND I'M TRULY AND DEEPLY SORRY THAT I MISSED YOUR PROM AND I KNOW YOU WERE AT MY  PROM EVEN THOUGH YOU COULDN'T BE THERE PHYSICALLY. I GUESS I GOT YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW BECAUSE YOU ARE THE REASON WHY MY HEART STILL BEATS YOU KEEP MY HEART TOGETHER WHEN YOU LEFT IT LEFT A BIG WHOLE IN MY HEART AND I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO BUT NOW I KEEP YOU IN MY HEART AND SOMEDAYS I FEEL LIKE LIFE MAY JUST BE ALRIGHT. WELL I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ETERNITY.........SEE YOU WHEN I GET THERE.......I LOVE YOU

WE DID SOOO MUCH TOGETHER WE HAD FUN TOGETHTER WE STRUGGLED TOGETHER, YOU COULD SAY THAT'S WHAT WE DO BECAUSE WE'RE FAMILY, BUT HOW MANY COUSINS DO YOU KNOW WITH A BOND LIKE US. THEY SAY YOU NEVER KNEW WHAT YOU UNTIL IT'S GONE BUT I ALWAYS KNEW WHAT I HAD, SO IN MY CASE I WANNA SAY THAT IT'S THE PEOPLE WHO NEVER KNEW WHAT WE HAD UNTIL IT WAS GOIN. IT'S LIKE WHERE HE WAS I WAS, NOW WE START GETTING OLDER HE WANTED TO DO DIFFERENT THINGS AND I STILL WAS ALWAYS THERE IT'S LIKE I HAD THE THE MOTHER PROTECTING THIER YOUNG SYNDROME BECAUSE I WOUDN'T LET NO HARM COME TO JAMELL AND HE KNEW IT BUT ON THAT PARTICULAR NIGHT I GUESS IT WAS MEANT FOR ME TO LET HIM GO BECAUSE HE LOOKED AT ME WITH HIS EYES AND I NODDED TO HIM GO HEAD AND IN MY MIND I WAS THINKING HE JUST MOVED IN I GOT HIM EVERYDAY ALL DAY I DON'T WANT VULTURE HIM SO I LET HIM GO JUST BECAUSE I THOUGHT THAT PHYSICALLY HE WOULD ALWAYS BE HERE WITH ME I KNOW IN MY HEART AND EMOTIONALLY JAMELL IS HERE. HE IS MY CONCSENCE ( I CAN'T GET THE SPELLING TOGETHER) AND MAYBE GOD WAS MY CONCESCENCE THAT NIGHT AND TOLD ME TO LET HIM GO, I DON'T KNOW BUT, SOMETHING WAS THERE AND I DONT BELIEVE IN GOD TOO MUCH BUT THERE ARE SOME THINGS THAT I BELIEVE IN LIKE EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON AND EVERYONE GOES WHEN IT'S THERE TIME. SO I LOVE YOU JAMELL FOREVER AND ETERNITY. SEE YOU WHEN I GET THERE